You can hear it here.

I started writing lyrics back on December 4, 2020.

“I held so tight to the sand and it slipped from my hands” and “you didn’t want to leave this way, there were many reasons to stay” are lyrics that came from these sessions.

At that point in time the song had a working title called “Am Sorrow”. The “Am” stands for the “Aminor Aeolian Mode”.

Some throwaway lyrics that I liked that didn’t make the final cut are “there’s only so much I could do to carry on a memory” and “I’ve been told the modern day view that loss is something I should be able to get over”. 

By September 2022, I had the second verse down and cut a voice memo for “Am Sorrow”. I had verses but no Chorus.

In October 2022, I was also writing a song called “If You Go So Will I” that had a pre chorus and a chorus but no verses.

So it was pretty clear to me that I had to merge “Am Sorrow” with “If You Go So Will I”. I started recording it as a rock track and changed the verse riffs from a minor chord progression to a major key chord progression.

At that time I also got a new acoustic guitar and I thought “why not”.

So I changed the song to an acoustic track. The vibe felt good so I kept working on it as an acoustic track.

But.

The vocals I felt were aggressive, almost barked out in the pre chorus and it didn’t work for an acoustic song. I tried other ways to sing it, but I am limited.

Nevertheless I kept at it.

I also added an electric guitar solo over the acoustic rhythm. It’s still the same solo on the final version. I love its Mark Knofler feel and inspiration. I added some drums for the solo, inspired by the build from “Stairway To Heaven”.

And it sat there for a year.

By August 2024, I rebooted the song to be a full band version that you are hearing right.

“If You Go, So Will I”. It’s a phrase that sounds simple, yet carries a gravity that only those who’ve lived it can understand.

Life is full of twists, some of them breathtaking, some overwhelming, and others downright daunting. True relationships thrive not in easy times, but in the moments when one person decides to take a leap of faith, and the other agrees to jump beside them.

This promise doesn’t always happen in the grand gestures. It’s found in everyday choices: moving to a new city for a job opportunity, staying up late to lend an ear, holding someone’s hand as they take a risk they’re terrified of. Holding a grain of a sand over a coffin.

Here’s the core: Our whole world revolves around someone else’s presence, and when they leave (through death, free will) our entire identity feels like it’s dangling in the wind.

Spoiler alert: you’re still there. The real question is, are you even going to recognize yourself?

Healthy relationships are about people standing side by side, walking in the same direction because they choose to.

And that choice — that freedom to go or stay based on what’s right for you, not because you can’t imagine your life without someone — that’s where real trust and love is.

But be careful as the family dynamic always finds ways to challenge that.

Because here’s the thing about relationships that last: they’re built on independence, not dependence.

When someone is free to leave, but they choose to stay, that’s real. And when you’re okay with walking your path, even if they’re not there? That’s strength.

When you know who you are and you’ve built your life on your own terms, the thought of someone leaving doesn’t feel like the end of the world.

So here’s the wrap.

Relationships aren’t about going wherever someone else goes. It’s about being strong enough to stand on your own but choosing to walk your own path.

Let them be free, and give yourself the same freedom. That way, if you go where they go, it’s because you’re choosing it, not because you’re afraid of the alternative.

Remember: you’re going to be okay either way.